Hello darlings, today it’s getting personal because my blog is my diary. Various information may be changed to protect the identity of the people involved.

The summer after the 8th grade I became completely infatuated with an older boy and we would always be “talking”. But I had moved away from him and things were complicated so we never had the chance to date. Keeping someone happy from a distance over a long period of time is difficult.

When we got older he came down to see me a handful of times. That would make me happy but when he was away I had no way of knowing what was going on with him, and when I turned 16 our phone calls turned into arguments about why I hadn’t made the effort to come see him.

There was a simple explanation.
1.) I’m a bad driver… It’s a curse.
2.) I’m directionally challenged.
3.) I couldn’t even drive to my own fathers house yet, much less even farther than that.

Then I got a job and my time has been equally but stressfully split between regular classes, college classes, athletics, and work. In my down time I would try to entertain a decent conversation about how his day went or the weather or anything really. That is, until eventually I would become busy again or I would fall asleep mid-conversation from for lack of a better word, exhaustion.
That eventually became too annoying for him and we had more arguments than conversations and I found myself unhappy every time we talked. In fact I stopped enjoying talking to him at all.

So I Nealie finally put an end to all that unhappiness because I decided I’m above that. I’m an awesome person and eventually someone will realize that and love who I am.

I hope everyone else feels that way about themselves too.

XOXO
you’re perfect.