Lately I’ve decided that I’ve only lost or become less close to people that were only toxic to me. I didn’t realize that at first, but now I know I’m better for it. The people that continually judge you based on your past or drag you back there do not deserve your present.
I will not lie and say I am always a nice person because I’m not. I am short tempered and stubborn as I’ll get out. HOWEVER, I’ve been trying to be better about that for a total of six months, and my old friends did nothing but continually say negative things about me. After 3 months of continually being called a b**** by my friends I decided that maybe silence was the most powerful thing I had. And so I was silent.

It turned out that I had been the only person trying to maintain these friendships even with my busy work and school schedule… Without me initiating things my friends and I were no longer even talking.

For about a month I resented them, and was sad to have lost such great friends that I had had for the past few years. Now all we had was a few mediocre conversations here and there. In fact we don’t even really know each other anymore, and anytime we get together everything is forced. It didn’t even take college to drift. Merely a shift of my own direction for my own personal health.

Now I’m less bitter because I realize it was crucial for these people and I to grow apart for me to grow at all. I feel much lighter now with new friends, and happier. I have surrounded myself with very positive people and no longer have to hear negative things about myself.

I made this blog in the hopes that my NBN lovers that are having troubles dealing with washed up friendships may realize it’s for the best.

XOXO
A much healthier, happier, friendlier Nealie.

P.S. I love you.