Hi hello my little darlings, for college English I wrote an ending to a southern gothic short story for an extra credit assignment. I had waaaaaay too much fun with this, and I thought I’d put off my four page essay just a little longer to share with you what I’d put into the category of some of my best work as a writer.

Just for a little back story the young Lucynell was deaf and slow until Shifner prayed for a rain to wash the bad out of the town. The rain chased him, but I thought it’d be a happy little thought for the rain to do something nice for Lucynell.

 

This is a very twisted story, and by the end of it you will all be wondering if I’m mentally stable. The answer is yes of course. This is just a twisted messed up assignment because it is after all a southern gothic story.

 

Without further ado, please enjoy my writing. I’ll attach the name of the story in a few days!

COLLEGE ENGLISH EXTRA CREDIT ENDING

Lucynell woke up on a plain brown couch in a white walled room where the only other furnishings were a plain dark wood coffee table in front of her and a simple brick fire place with a fire going. Lucynell stood up and tightened the quilt that had covered her around her shoulders. Her feet felt cold on the white tile floor. She was surprised by how clear her thoughts and observations were. She was usually very slow, and people had noticed it. Where am I? Lucynell thought. She decided tried to recall what had happened that night. She woke up in her usual slow mental haze, mute as usual, at a bar stool in a restaurant. There wasn’t anyone there, and she was confused. A man grabbed her hand across the bar, and she wondered what he was doing. He wasn’t a familiar face, this wasn’t a familiar place. She giggled at her internal rhyme. He took her hand and led her out the door into a storm, he hurried her into a car, but it didn’t matter she was already soaked with rain. All of a sudden she heard thunder. She HEARD the thunder. She looked over at the man and realized he couldn’t be any older than 22. “Don’t be scared,” he said. And she didn’t know if he meant of him, or the rain. She leaned her head against the door, and somewhere between where they left and where they were going she fell into another deep sleep as she wondered about the weird sensation of hearing things like a stranger man’s voice and thunder. She came back from her day dream and decided to go into the connecting room that looked like a kitchen. She turned on the sink and washed her hands and splashed water on her face. She didn’t realize that she’d started crying. It was as though her hearing and thoughts had come in with the rain. She heard the door creak open and the man walked in; she read the name tag on what appeared to be his work shirt. Timothy she thought. His face softened as he realized that she had been crying. He came over to her, close, but not too close, and shut off the water. He looked into her eyes studying her for a second, and suddenly Lucynell felt self-conscious about her wrinkled white dress. Timothy asked with a smile, maybe sensing her self-consciousness, “What’s your name ma’am?”  She was nervous to hear her own voice because she never had before, but she smiled in spite of herself and said, “Lucyne…” And then smiled ever bigger and finished, “Just Lucy.” Because nothing sounded better than a new life as “Just Lucy.”

Old Lucynell grew older and bitterer every day. She had filed police reports, and had alerted half the state of Alabama that her daughter was missing. But the police came back after a year finally telling her every lead was a dead end, her car was gone, and there was no man named Shifler. The police said give up, little Lucynell was gone. Old Lucynell was going insane and getting lonely. Finally one night she set fire to everything that Shifler had repaired. After all, it didn’t matter; he had damaged everything she cared about. The fire was put out by all the firemen in her one horse town, but even after all of her property was level and smothered with ash she refused to leave. When she was finally alone she went through the ashes of her home. She found only one thing, and that was the charred remains of little Lucynell’s doll. She grabbed her daughters doll and held it as if it were her baby Lucynell. She walked for a mile down to the train tracks that she and Lucynell used to flatten pennies on, and lay down on the tracks. Old Lucynell clutched the doll to her chest as hard as she could and let out a trembling sob. She wailed until she felt the tracks shake. Then she lay still and squeezed her eyes shut tight. The last thing old Lucynell heard was the whistle of a train. The only person to visit old Lucynell’s grave side was a man named John Westbrook who sometimes liked to be called Shifler.

Five years later Lucy was married to a man named Timothy, and using the money from his three jobs he put her into college. She wanted to teach the hearing impaired. She never bothered to go home or check on her mother. She was too busy being free, although her mother did cross her mind a lot. She imagined her in her rocking chair enjoying her view. Her mother always loved her view.

“Shifler” hadn’t stopped in Alabama to settle in. He kept driving his green car until he came just inside the Ohio border. He got a job at a bike shop where he made $9.00 an hour and eventually fell in love with the petite blonde shop owner named Carol. They got married, but Carol went missing two years later. When they found Carol she was buried in the front yard of their modest home.  The police are now out looking for a man named Ronald Richardson, with the same features and missing limb as “Shifler.” John is sstill on the run, but he always stops in Alabama once a year to check in on Old Lucynell.

 

XOXOXO

Mondays.

Hello again lovies I promise to queue up a bunch of stuff for you as soon as I can, but for today I’d like to discuss Mondays.

Mondays are inevitable, the happen every week.
By now haven’t we all learned that we can’t escape?

I was definitely an avid Monday hater until last Monday when I stumbled upon this.

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Bam. You were totally just served by the statistical greatness of Mondays.

Xoxo, have fun with your new view on Mondays.

Quote Unquote Perfection

Hey there. I’ve been ranting so much about crappy people and crappy characteristics in people that I forgot to tell you… Hey, you’re stinking wonderful.

Some of you won’t believe that. Some of you will say, “Nealie, you don’t know that.” “Man I’ve messed up a few times.” “I lost a couple friends I don’t feel like I have anyone.” “Things aren’t going my way right now.”

I don’t need to know those things to know you are perfection. You’re special.

I can tell you a few things without even knowing you. You’re different, the way you dot your I’s and cross your T’s is unlike anyone else does. The way you stretch in the morning and smile into the mirror is all your own.

So yea, it may be a bad day.
I promise it’s not a bad life.

You’re “Perfect.”

Xoxo

Hi Hello.

Rant level:Annoyed.
First question.
Errhermm… Who are you to judge me?
In this world with millions of people you amount to a speck of dust. Really and truly… Out of this whole universe that’s it.
Now so do I.

BUT. If it makes a speck of dust happy to have fake nails, fake hair, and wear make up then let them during their speck of existence.
If they don’t like to then that’s just as good.
If the don’t want to match that’s perfect.
If they’d rather read a book than participate in life then let them.

Seriously… Sometimes people’s paths cross and we just don’t get along but honestly keep yourself in check.

You’re a speck. I am a speck.

XOXO
Another speck.

Rant, Rant, Rant.

I shall start this off by saying that if this applies to you, you should maybe think about changing your life.

If you are a God fearing Christian. GOD FEARING CHRISTIAN. Then you have got to understand you have no place in deciding or talking about or making judgements on who’s prayers get heard by the big man.
Honestly, God is bigger then you and me both. And you know what? You being narrow minded isn’t what he intended to happen either!
If you EVER catch your self thinking like that maybe focus on yourself.
Now you’re all asking “But Nealie haven’t you done that?”

WHY YES I DID. I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT.
Then Dirks Bentley came along, and he was all.

“The Heaven I’m Headed To”

I hear people talk of heaven
And how it’s only for the precious few
But in the book that I’ve been readin’
Sounds to me like there’s a lot of room
So I bet some folks are gonna be surprised
About who makes it to the other side ’cause in the

Heaven I’m headed to
There’s a place for preachers, thieves and prostitutes
Saints and soldiers, beggars, kings and renegades
For any soul that ever found amazing grace
Ain’t no tellin’ who on earth He might include
In the heaven I’m headed to

It’s not my place to say
Just who does or doesn’t get to go
I’m only one among the many
Stumblin’ down that narrow road
There’s so many things in this life to love
And I believe there’s hope for each of us ’cause.

Heaven I’m headed to
There’s a place for preachers, thieves and prostitutes
Saints and soldiers, beggars, kings and renegades
For any soul that ever found amazing grace
Ain’t no tellin’ who on earth He might include
In the heaven I’m headed to.

And I was all thank you Jesus for showing me that song!

So. If that’s you, you’ve gotta realize you’re being a judge mental moron.
Now don’t get mad at me saying that, because trust me, I was one too.

Basically, realize you are no better than the prostitute, beggar, thieve, rude person whatever.

God did not create stereotypes or social standings!
We did, and I’ll bet he hates half of what we’re up to.
So do us all a favor and think before you say something idiotic and unnecessary.

Xoxo,
Teacher Nealie.

Being Santa.

This year family friends of mine have run into some hard times. Just right before the holidays. There is a little girl in the family and she looked at me and said, “But Santa will still come, he always comes.” So I sent her mom a text and said please let me be Santa so that he can come and you don’t have to worry about it. She said yes, but only because it was for the little girl.
I can’t wait to hear about how excited she is on Christmas. ❤

XOXO

Reading the Writing on the Wall.

Today I was at church and I was talking to God and I had my hands in the air and my eyes closed. Suddenly I felt a sign in my hands. Then I saw a hand come and paint in black words on the white boardI’m done with who I was. I never looked down at the board it’s like I was seeing it from both sides. I think it was a different me writing it. I have yet to become who I am. And God told me I need to let go.
Then our new preacher started preaching about how an ignorant king disregarded the sacred things if God and couldn’t read the writing on the walls that I hand came and wrote one night about how his ruling days were numbered.
I missed God.

XOXO

This Glass of Mine.

I’m just not big on people pleasing.
I am Nealie Sanchez.
I’m a little too loud.
I laugh a little too hard.
I have more guy friends than girl friends.
I smile more than I frown.
No matter what happens to me on any given day I’ll tell you at least one absolutely wonderful thing that happened.
I think love is probably real.
I understand loss. Too well.
I bite off more than I can chew.
My music is the best.
Some days no one gets me, but that’s okay.
I don’t feel pretty every single day on the outside, but I always feel good about my inside.
People take advantage of my kindness sometimes.
I’ll try and make your day.
Sometimes I am wrong.
I will confront you, but if I don’t you couldn’t have your 2 cents. Or get your second chance.
I believe people change, but sometimes it’s not for the better.

Some people won’t like that.

The thing is. This glass of mine will always be full.

XOXO
A refreshed Nealie.